So yeah.
I havent updated in a while. For that, Im sorry.
Its been exactly a month and two days since my last update.
Time flies by fast, dont it? Heh.
My life last month has been...horrible. And thats putting it nicely.
I havent been tired this much ever since the 17th of January. Yes, I still remember the date she broke up with me. And yes, Im still sorta not over it.
How can you? When you love someone so much that just a thought of him/her was enough to make a bleeding hole in your heart when you miss them?
To this day, the scars have yet to heal fully. Only partially. And they're still bleeding.
I keep wondering of 'what ifs'. What if we were still together to this day? What if I was a better person? Would that have changed something?
...I doubt it.
Call me obsessed but Im not. She was the first Ive held truly strong feelings for and it hasnt changed one bit. I still do. Sigh.
...But enough about that.
In summary, April has been shitty with many downs and only a few ups. And just when I got a break, something managed to screw it up.
Yeah. Im pretty much using this blog to rant/whine/bitch and every other synonym regarding the previous words Ive used but I dont care. My blog, my business. Ya dig?
Im going to try and update at least once a week.
I'll see you next week or sooner.
Adieu.
